Cathedral Rock, Sedona, AZ

I was in Sedona last week.  It was beautiful on many levels and is a powerful energy place, to the point that I barely slept at all the first night.  I lay awake, buffeted by waves of energy and by my own thoughts, and then by a corresponding fear of all that intense energy.  At first I tried to fight the energy and its effect on me, trying to insulate myself & calm my mind, hoping that I could cause the energy to subside — but instead, it intensified.

Then I heard a phrase come into my awareness:  “I am light.”  This startled me at first, but I became aware that I had a choice…  and what I chose then was to surrender into all this energy,  instead of fight it.  As soon as I did this I felt calmer, like I was flowing with the energy instead of trying to hold it back.  I continued to repeat “I am light” to myself, and soon fell into a peaceful state ending in sleep.  Thus the next day, even with very little sleep, I was able to enjoy a full day and a vigorous hike of Cathedral Rock.  I began to understand the power of the amplification of thought/energy that presents itself in Sedona, – and more & more in my everyday life.  But what does “I am light” mean?

I’ve been sitting with this, knowing it’s significant, and that it’s a new paradigm for me.  This awareness has drifted into my consciousness throughout this week, but resonated especially when I read this passage from Bartholomew:

“You are weaving an incredibly vast and beautiful tapestry of moving light (!), lifetime after lifetime.  From your limited consciousness, it is not possible for you to view that tapestry, but there will come a time in your understanding when you will find enough detachment  to be able to see what you have created.  And you will find it good.  Because you are so close to it, and so busy weaving your own strand, you cannot see the boldness or the wonder of the whole.  But when you do, you will not want to change one line, one incident, or one moment.  You will see that it is all absolutely perfect, exactly as it is, and you will feel the joy and wonder of being part of it.”

So, is this detachment another form of surrender?  Surrendering the fear, detaching from control…  Maybe understand that it’s all perfect beyond our understanding.  In this lifetime, we weave a beautiful tapestry of light together with everyone we touch (even through the internet).  Breathe, relax and open your heart, and see if you can know that you are light, creating a masterpiece with every moment.